12 O’clock

At 12:00 O’clock I’m writing these words
I’m letting you know what’s on my mind.

I can’t make promises to you
I don’t want to be like the rest.

I can only tell you what I know.

You called me your best friend,
That has never been said to me before.

You told me you love me
That has never been said to me before.

Our friendship means so much

I don’t expect anything from you other then what you are.
I can’t give you anything other then myself.

Many have said these words are too strong, they may be,
but they are what’s on my mind.

When our bodies meet there is no greeter feeling that goes through me.
It is unreal the feelings I have when we touch.

I will be by your side for as long as you want.
I will be there as your friend or as your beloved.

I can’t make any promises so I won’t.

Understand that there is nothing I wouldn’t do for you,
as your friend or as your beloved.

Some have called my words too powerful; they could be,
but they are what’s on my mind.

I will respond to you in anyway we agree.

I would give you all that I have,
But all I have of any concern, is my heart.
Be gentle with it, it compares to only to the finest crystal, or the most delicate China.

Never forget these words; they come from somewhere inside me.
It is the place where all my memories of you are held.

Most important, remember these words come from:
Your best friend
And your beloved.

I will always be to you one-in-the same,
As you are to me.

Daniel

You live behind a wall of truth
I live behind a wall of dreams

We speak together

We share together

You call out to me
I call out to you

We listen together

We laugh together

You reach out for me
I reach out for you

We play a game together

We plan a gathering together

You touch me
I touch you

We bend to our desires together

We burst from our desires together

You live behind a wall of truth.
I live behind a wall of dreams.

The Clock

TICK…

Another moment gone…

TICK…

Another moment in my life is over!
I can never regain

TICK…

That time.

So then would this time be…

TICK…

Wasted.

Can I not make each…

TICK…

Moment count?

Should I even try to make each…

TICK…

Moment last?

TICK…

Another moment lost!

The Candle

One small candle burns alone at night
Sitting waiting for more light
The burning stick of wax sits high
and it can see other light

But the stick is trapped,
It can not move.
So forever the candle burns alone.

Waiting for the day
It will finally burn itself out,
and be away from its high and lonely sill.

Slipping Away

I feel it slip
At times I know it’s trying to leave me

I feel it slip
At times I know it has already gone

I feel it slip
At times I wonder if I will miss it

I feel it slip
At times I wonder what will happen to me

I feel it slip
At times I think I will miss its passing

I feel it slip
At times I think what will I do without it

I feel it slip
At times I want to lock it up

I feel it slip
At times I want it to be safe

I feel it slip
I feel it slip
I feel it slip

No don’t leave, don’t take your love from me.

Silly, Foolish, Irrational

I love you

How silly is that, I know you are sitting there miles away from me.

I love you

I will never really know you, I know you are hidden away from me

I love you

I will never see you, I know you are more than you say you are

I love you

How foolish am I, I know you are nothing like you seem

I love you

I will have my fantasies of you; I know in my mind you are better than you are

I love you

I will have my memories of you; I know you are only kind to me because it is a game

I love you

How irrational is that, I know you tell me things you want me to hear to play to my ego

I love you

I will hold you near and dear to me; I know you are not of my ilk and you will only hurt me

I love you 

I will hold you close to me; I know you will never allow it, still it doesn’t change

How idiotic am I, I know you will cause me nothing but pain and sorrow, still it doesn’t matter

I love you
No matter how silly, foolish or irrational
I love you

Sea of Gold

When I look at you,
I see a smile that is as broad as the sea,

Not the winkles of your age.

When I look at you,
I see eyes that are as deep as the ocean,

Not the redness of time.

When I look at you,
I see skin that is as soft as a pool,

Not the stiffness of age.

When I look at you
I see a body that is as strong as the surf,

Not weak or tired.

When I look at you,

I see the person with whom I’ve spent my life
I would not change any moment of our time together,

Not even for a sea of gold.

Saying Goodbye

Here I am
laying in your bed.

Thinking of how many times you've done this.
Thinking of how many times I've done this.
Thinking of how many times we've done this.

You with your coy smile.
You with your boyish looks.
You with your endless eyes.

I knew what I was getting into when you said, "Hi."

How could I resist?
You offered me something I couldn't resist.

I'm careful not to wake you.

I remember how gentle you were.
I remember how kind you were.

I knew what I was getting into when you offered to take me home.

How could I resist?
You offered me something I couldn't resist.

I knew you only wanted one thing.
It was the same thing you always want.

Once you woke up you would want me to leave anyway.

I'm careful not to make any noise.

I wish you would want me to stay.
You don't.
I know.

You never want me to stay.
I always have to leave.

You always come up with a reason why we can't get together again.

I knew what I was getting into when you asked me to stay the night.

How could I resist?
You offered me something I couldn't resist.

I'm leaving before I remember how gentle you were,
how kind you were,
and how charming you were.

Charming you’re not
when you ask me to leave

I'm leaving before I think of a reason to stay.

I'm leaving before you wake.
Before you wake and come up with a reason for me to leave.

I'm leaving before I remember your coy smile,
your boyish looks,
and your endless eyes.

Your eyes do end.
They end when you look at me in the morning light

I hope you got what you wanted last night.

I know you gave me something I couldn't resist.

Reflection

I’m sitting here thinking

Thinking about you

Thinking about the short amount of time we’ve spent together
time that I’ve enjoyed

Thinking about your smile
your beautiful smile

Thinking about your eyes
your stellar eyes

Thinking about your lips
Your gorgeous lips

Thinking about the little things you’ve done
little things that mean so much to me.

Thinking about the moments we’ve shared
moments that have seemed like hours but have only been minutes

Thinking of how I look forward to seeing you
Thinking of how I look forward to talking with you
Thinking of how I look forward to getting to know you

In general, I’m just sitting here thinking about you.

Our Dance

We dance around

The Earth floating passed us

We dance around as one

The moon illuminating our movements

We dance around as one in perfect rhythm

The stars twinkling to the beat of our hearts

We dance around as one in perfect rhythm with no one watching

The plants suspended around us

We dance around as one in perfect rhythm with no one watching, no one mocking

The universe revealing our souls

We dance around as one in perfect rhythm win no one watching, no one mocking and no one seeing.

We dance around
 

One in the Same

There is nothing special about him
There is nothing striking about him
There is nothing engaging about him

He holds sadness in his heart
He sees pain in the world
He hears sorrow around him

There he holds warmth in his lap
There he holds knowledge at his finger tips
There he holds humanity with a touch

He has nothing special to offer
He has nothing striking to show
He has nothing engaging to share

There he holds joy in his heart
There he sees pleasure in the world
There he hears delight around him

He holds coldness in his lap
He holds ignorance at his finger tips
He holds callousness with a touch

They are separate but equal
They are one in the same
They are together
 

My Friend

Why do you hide?
What scared you

Why do you hide?
Who hurt you

Why do you hide?
How can you not see

Why do you hide?
When are you going to allow for love

Why do you hide?
Where there are places to go

Why do you hide?
Why don’t you take the chances that are waiting

Why do you hide?
What we see is your kindness

Why do you hide?
Who we see is stronger than he knows

Why do you hide?
How can we help you be who you want to be

Why do you hide?
When you can be loved by those who are near to you

Why do you hide?
When you have the strength behind you moving you forward

Why do you hide?
Where there is much for you to see waiting for you to greet it

Why do you hide?
Why can’t you allow yourself to be free it is simply there for you

Why do you hide?

Morning Coffee

The coffee is warm in my hands
It warms my soul

I had to say goodbye to you, but the coffee warms my hands

The morning sun is warm on my face
It warms my soul

I couldn’t save you from your own darkness, but the sun warms my face

The morning wind kisses my cheeks
It cools my desires

I tried to help yet you pushed away everything I offered, but the wind caresses my cheeks

The morning air fills my lungs.
It fills me with life

I tried to love you more than any other.  I wasn’t enough, but the cool air fills my life

The morning mist touches my body
It helps me to feel

I tried to show you goodness and light as often as I could, but the mist makes me feel

I have a warm soul
I have cooled my desires
I have a full life
I have felt in my life

I had to say goodbye to you.

Life

It never seems to go away
No matter what you say
No matter what you do

It’s always there,
always there to come in
always there to attack you when you think
always there to come and wake you from your sleep

There are no drugs
There are no movies,
Books,
Plays,
And no amount of laughter to hide behind.

It is always there
The pain you feel
Every time you think of love
And someone loving you.

But like they say, “you can’t have someone love you
Until you love yourself.”

But as long as the pain is there
How can you learn to love yourself
Without the love of someone else.

In the Morning

The light comes through my window,
I look over and I see you asleep

Laying so innocent so sweet.

As I remember our night
I think of you and how you felt against my body
Laying so innocent so sweet.

I look down at the beauty that is yours.
I realize that we are now joined.

A bound that can not be broken,
Not by man,
Not by law,
Not even by god

Our bond is LOVE.

As the light comes through my window

I see you now more clearly,
Your lines,
Your shadows,
Your contours,

I see you!

But wait…

What has happened?

The light that comes through my window is fading.

As I look over
You are no longer laying there so innocent so sweet.

You are gone!

Were you my imagination?
Were you real?

Or, was our bond not what I thought it was?

I Failed

I watched you lie there
There was nothing I could do

I watched you slowly melt away
There was nothing I could do

I watched you be looked at and watched
There was nothing I could do

I watched you be tested
There was nothing I could do

I watched the tubes be removed
There was nothing I could do

I watched the family crumble
There was nothing I could do

I watched you slip off to eternal sleep
There was nothing I could do

I watched them take you away from me
There was nothing I could do

I watched the false and phony words from people who treated you poorly
There was nothing I could do

I watched them come and go with a smile and a laugh
There was nothing I could do.

I failed you
I failed you and I’m sorry
I failed you and I’m sorry and I can’t look at them
I failed you and I’m sorry and I can’t look at them and I’m angry
I failed you and I’m sorry and I can’t look at them and I’m angry and I want you back
I failed you and I’m sorry and I can’t look at them and I’m angry and I want you back and I miss you
I failed you and I’m sorry and I can’t look at them and I’m angry and I want you back and I miss you and I miss them

I failed you
I’m sorry

I miss you and want you back – I love you.
 

How do I

How do you say
    I like you

How do you say
    I like your smile

How do you say
    I think you’re nice

How do you say
    I’m sorry

How do you say
    I’m glad to see you

How do you say
    I wish you were here

How do you say
    I made a mistake

How do you say
    I’m sorry

How do you say
    I want you to forgive me

How do you say
    I still love you