Morning Coffee

The coffee is warm in my hands
It warms my soul

I had to say goodbye to you, but the coffee warms my hands

The morning sun is warm on my face
It warms my soul

I couldn’t save you from your own darkness, but the sun warms my face

The morning wind kisses my cheeks
It cools my desires

I tried to help yet you pushed away everything I offered, but the wind caresses my cheeks

The morning air fills my lungs.
It fills me with life

I tried to love you more than any other.  I wasn’t enough, but the cool air fills my life

The morning mist touches my body
It helps me to feel

I tried to show you goodness and light as often as I could, but the mist makes me feel

I have a warm soul
I have cooled my desires
I have a full life
I have felt in my life

I had to say goodbye to you.

Life

It never seems to go away
No matter what you say
No matter what you do

It’s always there,
always there to come in
always there to attack you when you think
always there to come and wake you from your sleep

There are no drugs
There are no movies,
Books,
Plays,
And no amount of laughter to hide behind.

It is always there
The pain you feel
Every time you think of love
And someone loving you.

But like they say, “you can’t have someone love you
Until you love yourself.”

But as long as the pain is there
How can you learn to love yourself
Without the love of someone else.

In the Morning

The light comes through my window,
I look over and I see you asleep

Laying so innocent so sweet.

As I remember our night
I think of you and how you felt against my body
Laying so innocent so sweet.

I look down at the beauty that is yours.
I realize that we are now joined.

A bound that can not be broken,
Not by man,
Not by law,
Not even by god

Our bond is LOVE.

As the light comes through my window

I see you now more clearly,
Your lines,
Your shadows,
Your contours,

I see you!

But wait…

What has happened?

The light that comes through my window is fading.

As I look over
You are no longer laying there so innocent so sweet.

You are gone!

Were you my imagination?
Were you real?

Or, was our bond not what I thought it was?

I Failed

I watched you lie there
There was nothing I could do

I watched you slowly melt away
There was nothing I could do

I watched you be looked at and watched
There was nothing I could do

I watched you be tested
There was nothing I could do

I watched the tubes be removed
There was nothing I could do

I watched the family crumble
There was nothing I could do

I watched you slip off to eternal sleep
There was nothing I could do

I watched them take you away from me
There was nothing I could do

I watched the false and phony words from people who treated you poorly
There was nothing I could do

I watched them come and go with a smile and a laugh
There was nothing I could do.

I failed you
I failed you and I’m sorry
I failed you and I’m sorry and I can’t look at them
I failed you and I’m sorry and I can’t look at them and I’m angry
I failed you and I’m sorry and I can’t look at them and I’m angry and I want you back
I failed you and I’m sorry and I can’t look at them and I’m angry and I want you back and I miss you
I failed you and I’m sorry and I can’t look at them and I’m angry and I want you back and I miss you and I miss them

I failed you
I’m sorry

I miss you and want you back – I love you.
 

How do I

How do you say
    I like you

How do you say
    I like your smile

How do you say
    I think you’re nice

How do you say
    I’m sorry

How do you say
    I’m glad to see you

How do you say
    I wish you were here

How do you say
    I made a mistake

How do you say
    I’m sorry

How do you say
    I want you to forgive me

How do you say
    I still love you
 

Just Know This…

Your work is always on time,
     Even if you are a few minutes late in the morning.

Your community relations are top notch,
     Even if you have a bad day now and then.

Your willingness to go above and beyond the call of duty is apparent to everyone,
     Even though on occasion you are not here.

Your undertakings are always excellent,
     Even though you make a mistake now and then.

You give so much to us,
And yet we can’t recognize you because what you contribute is not recognizable.

Our measurements are flawed,
When we want to measure what you give us.

Can I say we need you?
     Yes.

Can I say we like your work?
     Yes.

Can I say how important you are to us?
     Yes.

Can I say we would loose something very special if you left?
     Yes.

I guess what I am trying to say is that even though we can’t recognize you,
You make a difference, and that is what I want you to know.

InnerVoice

I want to say, “HI”
    I look silly

I want to say, “I THINK YOU’RE BEAUTIFUL”
    I look dumb

I want to say, “LETS GO TO DINNER”
    I look lame

I want to say, “I THINK YOU’RE VERY NICE”
    I look foolish

I want to say, “I LIKE YOU”
    I look idiotic

I want to say
I want to say
I want to say

I want to say so much

The mirror
The mirror
The mirror

I look stupid

The Kiss

Your soft mouth engulfs me

A shudder runs through my spine at your touch

You massage my tender flesh

Your dark eyes meet my gaze
Your kiss deepens

A tingle causes me to gasp at your touch

You run a hand over my burning figure

Your ruby lips tease my skin
Your kiss intensifies

A jolt of energy passes between us at your touch

You pull away from my body

Your gentle smile rips away from me
Your kiss vanishes

A content sigh escapes my mouth as you remove your touch

Interpretation

There you sit smiling
   I want to smile too
   But I don’t know why you’re smiling – you can’t hear and I can’t speak.

There you sit talking
    I want to talk too
    But I don’t know how – you can’t hear and I can’t speak.

There you sit laughing
    I want to laugh too
    But I don’t know why you’re laughing – you can’t hear and I can’t speak.

There you sit confused at me
There I sit lost from understanding.

I’m sad

Now, there you sit teaching
    I try to learn
    But it is very slow – you can’t hear and I can’t speak.

Now, there you sit telling
    I try to comprehend
    But I understand very little – you can’t hear and I can’t speak.

Now, there you sit playing
    I try to play too
    But I play very badly - you can’t hear and I can’t speak.

Now, we try to understand
Now, we try to talk

I’m happy

I am no longer lost from understanding.
You are no longer confused with me.

Alas, I still don’t always know how
Alas, it is still very slow – but we learn together.

Hold Me

Hold me

Please don’t let me go

Hold me

Please just love me

Hold me

Please stay with me forever

Hold me

Please don’t get up

Hold me

Please don’t get dressed

Hold me

Please don’t look at me as you leave

Hold me

Please don’t close the door

Hold me

Please come back

Hold me

Glass

Glass all around me
    I try to talk
    But you can’t hear my words

Glass all around me
    I try to scream
    But you can’t hear my cries

Glass all around me
    I try to break free
    But it’s stronger than I

Glass all around me
    I try to make you understand
    But you can’t understand me

Glass all around me
    You try to help
    But you don’t know how

Glass all around me
    Forever
    Forever
    Forever…
 

Full Circle

Mine, mine, mine

But I want it, mommy no fair

I hate you, parents don’t understand

I’ll never do that to my children - never.  You can’t just treat me this way.  I’m not a child anymore.

Dinner, movie, drinks

I love you, of course I do.

I’m so happy, all that matters is the children are healthy

A house, can you believe it, it’s ours.  We did it we made it, it has finally happened

Tuition, bills, retirement

They’ve all grown up, we miss the kids

Bouncing on our knees, a grandchild, nothing is so sweet

We’re saying goodbye to the house.  We’re moving on; another adventure awaits.

Mine, mine, mine

I hate you, children don’t understand

I was never like that to my children - never.  You can’t just treat me this way.  I’m not a child anymore

Desire

I want you
I know you don’t want me

I need your touch
I know you don’t need mine

I long for you to kiss me
I know you don’t long for my kiss

I ache to feel your body
I know you don’t ache for mine

I desire you more each day
I know you desire me less each day

We are together but alone

I desire you.

Definition

A smile,
A kiss,
A simple touch of the hand.
That is Love

How can we give limits to
Something that has no boundaries

Why must I hide
In the dark,
In the shadows,
In the closet.

When you can be out in the open!

The Protector

Its Green eyes burn into me
Its wings can carry the greatest weight of my heart

It speaks in a musical voice to my soul

What it guards is more valuable then all the gold in the world

Its seen the fire of heaven
Its seen the water of life
Its seen the winds of time

Its Green eyes burn into me
Its Wings can carry the greatest weight of nature

It speaks in a musical voice for all to hear

What it guards is more valuable then all the diamonds in the world

Its seen the fire of man
Its seen the water of war
Its seen the winds of change

Its Green eyes burn into me
Its wings can carry the weight of man

It speaks in a musical voice which is ignored

What it guards is more valuable then all the gold and diamonds in the world

Its seen the fire of passion
Its seen the water of knowledge
Its seen the winds of strength

Its Green eyes burn into me
Its wings can carry the greatest weigh of my heart

It speaks in a musical voice to all who hear it

What it guards is the...

The Sum of a Man

How do you sum up a man?

By his service to his family
By his service to his church
By his service to his community
By his service to his country

How do you sum up a man?

From being a drummer in a band
To being in the army
Serving in Africa
Serving in India
Serving at home
To being a volunteer firefighter
To being a husband
To being a father
To being a grandfather
To being a great-grandfather
To being a great-great-grandfather

How do you sum up a man?

Who did what he could
Who did what he thought he had to
Who did what might not of been easy
Who did his very best

How do you sum up a man?

Simple:

By who he loved and
By who loved him

He was husband
He was father
He was grandfather
He was great-grandfather
He was great-great-grandfather

And he was loved
And he will be misse

Together

Feeling his breath she lies there
Feeling his heartbeat she lies there
Felling his body she lies there

There is no love
There is no passion
There is no sorrow

Feeling her softness he lies there
Feeling her sigh he lies there
Feeling her body he lies there

There is no love
There is no passion
There is no sorrow

They are together in the bed they made
They are together in the lives they share
They are together in the world they created

They are together in the pain they share
They are together in the weaknesses they have
They are together in the lies they live

Feeling his breath; she dies
Feeling her softness; he dies
Feeling his heartbeat; she weeps
Feeling her sigh; he sheds tears
Feeling his body; she bleeds
Feeling her body; he hemorrhages

Slipping Away

I feel it slip
At times I know it’s trying to leave me

I feel it slip
At times I know it has already gone

I feel it slip
At times I wonder if I will miss it

I feel it slip
At times I wonder what will happen to me

I feel it slip
At times I think I will miss its passing

I feel it slip
At times I think what will I do without it

I feel it slip
At times I want to lock it up

I feel it slip
At times I want it to be safe

I feel it slip
I feel it slip
I feel it slip

No don’t leave, don’t take your love from me