Morning Coffee

The coffee is warm in my hands
It warms my soul

I had to say goodbye to you, but the coffee warms my hands

The morning sun is warm on my face
It warms my soul

I couldn’t save you from your own darkness, but the sun warms my face

The morning wind kisses my cheeks
It cools my desires

I tried to help yet you pushed away everything I offered, but the wind caresses my cheeks

The morning air fills my lungs.
It fills me with life

I tried to love you more than any other.  I wasn’t enough, but the cool air fills my life

The morning mist touches my body
It helps me to feel

I tried to show you goodness and light as often as I could, but the mist makes me feel

I have a warm soul
I have cooled my desires
I have a full life
I have felt in my life

I had to say goodbye to you.

In the Morning

The light comes through my window,
I look over and I see you asleep

Laying so innocent so sweet.

As I remember our night
I think of you and how you felt against my body
Laying so innocent so sweet.

I look down at the beauty that is yours.
I realize that we are now joined.

A bound that can not be broken,
Not by man,
Not by law,
Not even by god

Our bond is LOVE.

As the light comes through my window

I see you now more clearly,
Your lines,
Your shadows,
Your contours,

I see you!

But wait…

What has happened?

The light that comes through my window is fading.

As I look over
You are no longer laying there so innocent so sweet.

You are gone!

Were you my imagination?
Were you real?

Or, was our bond not what I thought it was?

I Failed

I watched you lie there
There was nothing I could do

I watched you slowly melt away
There was nothing I could do

I watched you be looked at and watched
There was nothing I could do

I watched you be tested
There was nothing I could do

I watched the tubes be removed
There was nothing I could do

I watched the family crumble
There was nothing I could do

I watched you slip off to eternal sleep
There was nothing I could do

I watched them take you away from me
There was nothing I could do

I watched the false and phony words from people who treated you poorly
There was nothing I could do

I watched them come and go with a smile and a laugh
There was nothing I could do.

I failed you
I failed you and I’m sorry
I failed you and I’m sorry and I can’t look at them
I failed you and I’m sorry and I can’t look at them and I’m angry
I failed you and I’m sorry and I can’t look at them and I’m angry and I want you back
I failed you and I’m sorry and I can’t look at them and I’m angry and I want you back and I miss you
I failed you and I’m sorry and I can’t look at them and I’m angry and I want you back and I miss you and I miss them

I failed you
I’m sorry

I miss you and want you back – I love you.
 

Hold Me

Hold me

Please don’t let me go

Hold me

Please just love me

Hold me

Please stay with me forever

Hold me

Please don’t get up

Hold me

Please don’t get dressed

Hold me

Please don’t look at me as you leave

Hold me

Please don’t close the door

Hold me

Please come back

Hold me

Glass

Glass all around me
    I try to talk
    But you can’t hear my words

Glass all around me
    I try to scream
    But you can’t hear my cries

Glass all around me
    I try to break free
    But it’s stronger than I

Glass all around me
    I try to make you understand
    But you can’t understand me

Glass all around me
    You try to help
    But you don’t know how

Glass all around me
    Forever
    Forever
    Forever…